America, Falling

I have been watching my country fall.

The current administration, the cast of players including not only the president but the attorney general, Bill Barr, the House Majority Leader, Mitch McConnell, and the entire GOP, is taking this government away from its designation as a democratic republic to a monarchy, or some form of totalitarian government.

I have watched and listened as the president has transferred onto his opponents the charges of what he is doing: destroying “our country.”( He has blamed democrats for any and everything that has not gone his way.

What he demands is not the love of the country, but the love of Trump.

Even though some Republicans are said to be disturbed at what he is doing, they are remaining silent, and their party as they have known it is crumbling a little more each day, but the president blames the Democrats for the demise of the GOP. ( He blamed problems in Baltimore on the Democrats. ( Even though it is Trump and his administration who are running roughshod over the very structure of the American government, he and his friends say that it is the Democrats.

Democracy as we have known it is crumbling. Author Christopher Browning said that our democracy is being suffocated. (, and he blames Senate Majority Leader Mitch McConnell for much of what is going on, something, Browning says, McConnell began while Barack Obama was president.

What is most troubling is that so many Americans, white and black, are in lock-step with this president. They refuse to admit that he has done anything wrong; they deny that he has lied about most everything. They nearly worship him; some believe that he was sent to this country by God. The people I always thought loved America most and the people who were always loudest on issues of morality and patriotism have joined the Trump movement.

What I don’t understand is what is underneath the abdication of the love for the America that has always been. I do not understand why this democracy is being trampled upon by the administration with the blessing of so many. What will happen to the masses of non-white, non-Christian nationalists if the president is re-elected?

There are striking and troubling similarities between this president and Adolph Hitler, another leader who demanded complete loyalty and who ushered in the Nazi party at the expense of Germany’s democracy. As I wade through my feelings on what I see happening, it is this demand for blind loyalty to this president that is bothering me most. People during Hitler’s rule were afraid to speak up and speak out, and it seems that while many of the masses of people have no problem with what they see happening, many politicians are afraid to speak up and speak out. And so, they acquiesce.

That so many people think there is nothing wrong with what appears to be a cozy relationship between this country and Russia – a country conservatives used to love to hate and which has never been a “friend” of this country – is confusing to me. It is troubling that so few people object to the president’s complimenting former enemies of this country while alienating long-term allies.

What role is the media playing in all of this? Even when this president was on the campaign trail, I felt like the media wasn’t taking him seriously, that they were letting him say whatever he wanted and were giving in too much to his role in silencing them as they sought to ask questions. I have felt only recently that there has been sufficient push-back from the media as this man has spewed lies. For the most part, he has had his way.

I wonder when he does his work, or more accurately, who is doing his work for him because he tweets so much! I wonder who is really running the country and letting the president stay on camera and do and say what he does to continue the distractions that have kept the media engaged since he entered the political arena.

I am afraid for the masses. I am afraid for black and brown people, afraid for Muslims, women, the poor and indigent, for the LGBTQ community, and for anyone this administration does not care for.

I am afraid that if he loses the election that he will not go quietly or with grace – if he goes at all. I am afraid that if he loses, he will increase the confusion and chaos he is so good at causing and say that he only lost because of the “deep state,” which he will accuse of “rigging” the election.

I am afraid that he has put in motion a model of government that will be authoritarian and totalitarian. I am afraid that he is setting the standards that other politicians will feel free to use if they are in office or run for office. It is the Democrats who are under attack now, but the tide will change – that is if the Republican party still exists in a two-party system.

There is something peculiarly unsettling about where this country is, and where many people living in this country are.

I am afraid of what I cannot yet see but which I feel is near. It feels like we are walking in the dark, feeling our way, but not knowing where we will be when the veil lifts.

America is falling, and I am afraid. I am afraid for this country. I am afraid for the masses. I  am afraid of the unknown that is still a big part of this administration.

A candid observation…

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